A lot of times we aren't willing to do the grunt work and figure out ways to change ourselves. Change is a scary word, but it is also vital to a happy life. Being flexible and willing to work on ourselves truly enhances our experience in life. A lot of us, including myself, are afraid of change though. We like our comfort zone. I view life as a constant learning process. You learn some things about yourself, others, and the world and apply what you know and what you strongly believe in your heart to make a difference. The passion has to be there though and that is where things get tricky.
What do you want? What would you do right now if you could do anything? Uh uh uh...no changing your mind! It is like when you choose an answer on an exam and then you change your mind last minute. Your first thought is almost always correct, it isn't affected by outside sources, or your lack of confidence and the presence of anxiety. It is the same way in life. Think back to when you were a kid. What did you enjoy the most? Are you able to make a life out of it? If not, and you are pursuing other avenues career-wise, do you still give time to your innermost child-like self? Do you do things that make you happy or do you try to please others? Society?
Sometimes life is rough. We have our ups and we have our downs. Isn't that why it is so exciting though? Think back to a year ago today...what were you worried about? You can't really remember specifics can you? Or at least it has all become a little clearer, hasn't it?
In yoga after a strenuous sequence of poses or when one becomes too tired to keep moving, you enter childs' pose. I enjoy yoga very much and often use it as a creative metaphor for life (that'll be another topic for another day). We constantly have to move and grow in our lives and there will always be moments where we don't think we can go on, where we feel defeated and as if our purpose and passion has been drained from us. That being said revert to childs' pose. Take some alone time, search out your strengths and desires, and really dig into your inner being. Do things that bring you happiness and take on the attitude of a child. Forget what others think about you, take on the confidence of the kindergartner who wants to bring an obscure thing to show and tell. Be proud of what is important to you and who you are. Laugh uncontrollably. Cry wholeheartedly, and heal and sleep without worry or fear. The next time you have a chance, watch a child sleep. They trust those they love and the world around them. They do not worry. They do not analyze. They just are, and it is so magical how situations and the terrible truth of the world hasn't affected or mired their innocence.
Follow your heart. It may be one of the most overused cliches in America but it is also the least understood. It isn't about romance. It's about you and your relationship with yourself. The most important one you'll ever really have. All the answers you seek out are within yourself, you just have to take the time and really want to grow. Read my blog, agree or disagree. It won't bother me either way. I have found what works for me, and what I need to do to stay innocent, grounded, or raw. Find what works for you, and go with it. I will end with saying my mindset on life. Don't knock it until you try it :). I will also say though that the point is not to overanalyze. You have to open yourself up to the answers and they will show themselves. If something is causing you anxiety (not to be confused with eustress), it probably isn't the right path for you, or at least not now. There is a time and a place for everything but if you are to stay in the moment you must follow what is calling your name now. This often calls for patience on our part, but after all the tortoise was the successful one!